Stay with me.

I was thrown back to early college years this week, thinking of when I fell in love with a song written by one of the guys from Penn Masala, Sandeep. He wrote "Stay with me" for his sister's wedding and even now when I listen to it I find it really touching. Unfortunately, I cant find the link for this song, but its the thought of its message thats really driving this post.

My best friend's engagement party is this weekend and I am going stag. Of course, I could bring a guest, but I figured I'm going to see all my friends so it shouldn't matter. But then, this weekend, as my mind wandered from the lumbosacral plexus and gluconeogenesis to what I'd be wearing and who I would see, I kept getting stuck on the thought that I would be at an engagement party, seeing all of my friends and their boyfriends, by myself. To put it another way, I'd be the only alone person there. I'm sure this is probably not a logical thought, but still, I felt really sad all at one moment. So, of course, I called up my boyfriend to vent about the sadness and how much I missed him. In that one conversation, I saw all the reasons why I love him. I realized that as helpless as I am in this, so is he. I also realized how truly sweet and comforting he can be as he told me not to worry, that we would share many more memories together, and that even though he couldn't be there physically he is always there for me. With those words, I realized that I am truly lucky, to have someone who cares about me so much and is so supportive even as we move through tough times. I am actually far from being "alone."

So, back to the song. There is one line that I always come back to...."Never know tomorrow where we'll be, but I wanna find where this may lead.... Stay with me." 

For you.

PS: congrats to the bride and groom, two very special ppl that I am also to glad to have in my life.